Alternate Vision

If I had all the time in the world, still, all this work that keeps piling on wouldn't get accomplished. So I've had to take a vastly different attitude to this whole graduate school business. I make sure I take lots of breaks, go running (capitalize on the good weather while it lasts and the fact that one of the best parks in the north east is five minutes from my house), spend a healthy amount of time cooking, sleeping and all the other 'essentials' to keeping sane. That said, there are times when you just want to pull all the hair out of your head and stick your head into the ground; I've always envied Ostriches for this remarkable characteristic. Thats when I drop everything and run to the nearest bar. Without a doubt a gradual metamorphosis of sorts is occuring within me, yet again. All of a sudden I have been exposed to myriad possibilities and opportunities and the eternal question that can consume any human being is slowly beginning to consume me- what is it that I want with my life? The first step to grappling with this bad boy has been and will continue to be identifying what I don't want. The thinking is that this elemination process will leave less on the table so I can focus my attention on what's important to me. I realize that decisions I make now will have profounds consequences down the road and hence I dare not say "it will work itself out, " not with these amazingly cool opportunities at my doorstep. TAing has been interesting. Just yesterday I had this girl stay after class to ask a question and half way through my explanation she burst out into tears. So I had to spend the next twently minutes rescuing her out of that fragile state and suddenly I foundmyself having tolook back at my undergrad years. What would I have done in her place? My brain was racing to seek the optimal solution. She needed a confidence booster, yes, and so thats what I proceeded to do. Time will tell how much that "lecture" helped. Ok, enough with the introspection. Am so tempted to go DC and watch the thievery in action yet again, but I won't.